Monday, November 24, 2014


You have become quite the fuss bucket and weeks 8 and 9 have been quite a doozy. I noticed some things though and it's kind of hard to admit: I don't like breastfeeding as much as I thought. Or like, kind of at all. Don't get me wrong, you and I have quite a special bond. You won't calm down for anyone but me. And dislike very much taking a bottle and really don't like transitioning between the two.
 It's so exhausting being the only source of food and comfort for you. Joey was exhausting but in a different way. I could take a break once in a while. Now I can't even take a shower without an interruption: "John needs you."
 I mean it's been 9 weeks and I still don't have one pair of jeans that fit. I can't go to the store for an hour to find a pair of pants without intense planning and Vegas- like luck on my side. 
I hate pumping. Especially at work. It just seems so dirty. And the set up and tear down and washing and storing everything. Ew. I have to keep my precious milk in a dirty, nasty, mold-filled community fridge. Barf. 
Maybe it's because it's winter, but I hate having to expose myself to feed you. It's cold! And I'm not comfortable feeding you in front of people either. It's awkward even with Joe. 
Everyone says it gets better and I'm going to hold out a while longer (3, 4 months) and then make a decision but maybe I liked bottle feeding more than I thought. 

Monday, November 17, 2014

John-john at one month old

11lbs and 23.25in
Dude, you're huge! 
(Update - Actually you're not huge. Doc says your only in 15% for weight! What?!? And here I thought you were a tank!)
You smile 
And love your mommy. 
You get pretty frustrated with bottles and awful crabby when I'm not home. 
Spent two Saturday's in a row with Dada and everyone survived! 
Will only nurse on the right side. 
Eat about 4oz in a bottle and I haven't need to supplement yet like I thought
Because I. Hate. Pumping. 
And you still hate the car seat. 
Pretty sure your eyes will be brown. 
And I'm pushing the use of a pacifer per the recommendation of my friends. 

Update #2 from the dr appt. I guess it's pretty obvious from this picture but you have torticollis. If we don't treat this you will have a misshapen head and might need a helmet to fix it. So far, the dr thinks we can treat at home but also recommends some PT if there's no improvement. This likely explains why you don't like to nurse on the left and don't like being in your car seat. So this means lots of tummy time, and stretching, and a consult to Dr. Ashley.